Pamela Anderson’s autobiography bares her soul on fame and heartache.

A stolen VHS containing intimate footage of Anderson with her first husband Tommy Lee was sold for more than $75 million (£60 million) in the first year alone, and a fictionalized account of the incident produced by Hulu received widespread acclaim and ten Emmy nominations.

The Canadian-born platinum blonde will tell her own story in a memoir and a nearly two-hour Netflix documentary on Tuesday.

Anderson, 55, reportedly began working on the projects when she discovered the Hulu series Pam & Tommy years ago.

“To survive, I blocked that stolen tape from my life. And now that it has resurfaced, I feel sick “She says in the trailer for the documentary. “I wish to assume narrative control for the first time.”

Here is a look inside Anderson’s new book Love, Pamela, a portrait of one of the most recognizable women written without the assistance of a ghostwriter.

A violent upbringing in a small town. Canada
Anderson was born in Ladysmith, a small town on Vancouver Island in British Columbia, Canada’s westernmost province.

She described her childhood in the island’s forested expanse, where she made mud pies and chased garter snakes among “fragrant purple lilacs, sour grapes on vines entwining tart green apple trees.”

However, these idyllic scenes are interrupted by the loud and occasionally violent conflict between her young parents. Anderson previously stated that her alcoholic father physically abused her mother.

And Anderson, too, endured harrowing abuse, recalling three instances of sexual assault before she turned 18 years old.

In one, Anderson claims a female babysitter abused her between the ages of six and ten. She writes: “My parents believed she was generous and kind, but it was just a ruse to throw them off the scent.” “At the time, I did not comprehend any of it. She threatened me and ordered me to keep my mouth shut. Or else.”

Then, at the age of 12, she was raped by a 25-year-old acquaintance. Later, at the age of 14, her boyfriend from high school and a group of his friends sexually assaulted her. “I did not inform anyone,” she writes. “I simply tuned it out.”